Even the hotmail and password i used for this account i also forgot alr.
Luckily there is one option named "forgot ur password?"
Even the blogID i also forgot alr. Either it is sozaiming la, or sohzaiming.
Yuan lai Google search Sohzaiming can str8 away view my blog.
No wonder she told me google can search the blog.
I guess she now also wont view this blog la. Since its inactive for more than 2 years.
Actually blogging really such a nice place to express ur feelings.
Happiness, sadness, loneliness, tension, excited and etc.
I guess she now also wont view this blog la. Since its inactive for more than 2 years.
Actually blogging really such a nice place to express ur feelings.
Happiness, sadness, loneliness, tension, excited and etc.
Today really very emo. So i choose come back here to write out my feelings right now.
Dont wish to share such emo feeling with others, its bad.
Dont wish to share such emo feeling with others, its bad.
Recently, really freaking bad luck for me.
Decadence for 2years, my academic CPGA from original first class 3.5+ drop until 3.2+ now.
Few reasons for me why decadence for these 2 years.
Relationship problem. The girl is really hurt me too much and when flip through notes or study,
I will freaking miss and review back the moment we study together, setting opponent as target to beat down, discussing the tutorial and examples, expressing point of view of ourselves and many many. In previous years, my heart is really fully filled by her.
In order to force myself not to keep think of her, i choose to skip class, stay inside the house gaming nonstop, so that i don have any extra time for me to think or do others things.
Few reasons for me why decadence for these 2 years.
Relationship problem. The girl is really hurt me too much and when flip through notes or study,
I will freaking miss and review back the moment we study together, setting opponent as target to beat down, discussing the tutorial and examples, expressing point of view of ourselves and many many. In previous years, my heart is really fully filled by her.
In order to force myself not to keep think of her, i choose to skip class, stay inside the house gaming nonstop, so that i don have any extra time for me to think or do others things.
2nd, at first i thought when get 1st class honour, the loan i get from PTPTN can apply as scholarship. Thats why i kept study hard so that i no need return any money to the government after i graduated. The amount i borrow is RM66k. When return, i need to pay back RM89k! there is RM89k!! So i keep aim for the first class. but one day, i go to the Wisma Perdana and ask for whether scholarship for first class still available?
I got the answer "NO, this is juz for the graduated student for 2010"
And recently, my senior Wei Soon who got 1st class in degree, he told me he just applied and government approved his loan changed as scholarship!!
WTF?!?! im freaking regret why i didnt really study in the previous years. ='[
During these Uni life, i nvr experience what i facing nw.
What The! im facing financial crisis! nvr so poor b4, my bank account today leave RM89. first time ever. ~.~
really spend too much in this two months. Alcohol, Clubbing, Gambling, Travelling. Wallet exhausted.
After that Nehemiah competition.
I got the answer "NO, this is juz for the graduated student for 2010"
And recently, my senior Wei Soon who got 1st class in degree, he told me he just applied and government approved his loan changed as scholarship!!
WTF?!?! im freaking regret why i didnt really study in the previous years. ='[
During these Uni life, i nvr experience what i facing nw.
What The! im facing financial crisis! nvr so poor b4, my bank account today leave RM89. first time ever. ~.~
really spend too much in this two months. Alcohol, Clubbing, Gambling, Travelling. Wallet exhausted.
After that Nehemiah competition.
My teammates and me had been busy for almost 1month for the model and information searching. many first time of my Uni life occured.
Stay uni more than 15hours.
1st time stay Uni until night time.
1st time having dinner in Uni.
there is really a unforgettable memories for me and i do appreciate.
At competition that day, we still put very high expectation on our baby.
Unfortunately, we lose the competition.
And the kiasu gia NKY won as champion! Really freaking emo for the morning and afternoon.
Stay uni more than 15hours.
1st time stay Uni until night time.
1st time having dinner in Uni.
there is really a unforgettable memories for me and i do appreciate.
At competition that day, we still put very high expectation on our baby.
Unfortunately, we lose the competition.
And the kiasu gia NKY won as champion! Really freaking emo for the morning and afternoon.
The most hurts me is relationship again.
Donno why, if let me to choose whether families, studies, friendships or relationships which is the first place. I will confirm answer relationships. I know i will be very fond of her, care her, and like her.
Donno why, if let me to choose whether families, studies, friendships or relationships which is the first place. I will confirm answer relationships. I know i will be very fond of her, care her, and like her.
but very sad, which just happened again ystd. she told me that really treat me as a very good fren after so long.
Always, I pretend as a clown or positive ppl to make fun for all the people surrounds me.
Look like im very happy, but deep in heart, sometimes its very sad. Pretend as happy sometimes really very suffer.
Look like im very happy, but deep in heart, sometimes its very sad. Pretend as happy sometimes really very suffer.
Ystd knew this things is around 3+ and end up with 4. After that insomnia for 2hours then alarm rang. Promised my frens to go titiwangsa for jogging session.
Really dont feel like going. But my style, what i have promised, i must do it no matter how.
then 6.06 i force myself wake up and go wash face. After that jau join them for jogging session.
Maybe emo can turn as energy. all of my friends today just jog for 2rounds, which is around 5km.
Really dont feel like going. But my style, what i have promised, i must do it no matter how.
then 6.06 i force myself wake up and go wash face. After that jau join them for jogging session.
Maybe emo can turn as energy. all of my friends today just jog for 2rounds, which is around 5km.
and me, im double of them, i jog for 4rounds in 65minutes. really wish to continue until i cant stand and fully exhausted. during jogging im still kept thinking about ystd. its really a big wound for me again. very hurt.
I know there are alot of things i can focus. But so far, i really wish that i can stay together with her forever. =']
i Like her very much.
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